juicy red heart
sometimes i get so wound up in life that i want to slowly push my hand through my chest and touch my
heart. i wanna touch my heart so badly. i want to massage it and remind it that it’s alive. that it has felt and
it has bled and it has repaired itself. i wanna touch my heart and feel all the people who’ve ever touched
it. i want my heart to guide me. i want it to talk to me and to heal me. i want my heart. i want to celebrate
with it and i want to cry with it. i want it to lean on me and warm me and i want me and my juicy red
heart to best friends. i don’t want to be scared of it anymore.
sometimes i forget how much love i have to give
sometimes i mourn the love ive given
the love i am no longer allowed to give
i mourn and mourn
And all this time
my heart has mourned with me
my beautiful red heart
i’m tired of running from it
i’m tired of shaming it
i want this heart to feel like home
i want it to whisper secrets to me at night through my dreams in my most ethereal state
i want my heart
i want my fucking heart
and one of these damn days
it’s gonna come to me and it's going to love me and i will love her and we will be blissful and we’ll sit on
an old porch, both worn out because of time.
And i will know that my life has been understood by something, my life will be understood by my heart
it will be understood by me
And that's all i really need.
Cover Photo by Allec Gomes.